Since learning of Prince’s untimely death at the age of 57, I haven’t been able to do what millions of other people are doing right now–listen to his music, which is ironic, as Prince’s music has been part of my daily life for over thirty years. I think if I listen to it now, it makes this horrible news more real. And I’m just beginning to emotionally unpack just what Prince has meant to me for the past thirty years, and will no doubt continue to mean to me for the rest of my life.We all know Prince’s legacy as a musician and as a star — musical prodigy, producing his own music starting at 19, recording over thirty albums (that’s almost one album per year since he started recording professionally) pushing sexual boundaries, redefining what is masculine and feminine in our culture. Among him and the other two 1958 babies —Michael Jackson and Madonna –together they defined 1980s pop music.
“I had no idea what Prince’s sexuality actually was, but I knew he was effeminate, and I was effeminate.”
But on a personal level, Prince changed my life. I was eight years old when his first breakthrough hits “Little Red Corvette” and “1999” starting playing in heavy rotation on MTV. I was too young to get all the sexual references and innuendos in those songs at the time, but I knew there was something special about Prince, something different. I had no idea what Prince’s sexuality actually was, but I knew he was effeminate, and I was effeminate, and that certain people hated us both for that. The same bullies that pushed me into the locker or threw spitballs at me while whispering “fag” were the same ones who mocked Prince, and those who listened to his music.
But Prince had the last laugh –he never cared what the haters said. He reveled in everything that made him different and weird, and in doing so, taught me to do the same. He taught me to own my weirdness, to own my own queerness, to not feel the need to conform to masculine ideals, to be whatever the hell I wanted to be. And for that, I will always love him and be grateful.
Purple Rain came out in 1984, it hit like a nuclear bomb.”
I’ve owned that album in almost every form since it came out; I wore out the vinyl in short order, then moved on to the cassette tape till that snapped, then the CD, and finally in my iTunes library, where it’s free to get played out infinite times with no damage. I’m grateful for that–thirty years later, it’s still my favorite album of all time.
But Prince was so much more than
And Prince as a live performer was simply beyond compare. His Superbowl Halftime Show in 2007 goes down as one of the greatest ever, as he sang “Purple Rain” quite literally
“He taught me to own my weirdness, to own my own queerness.”
I was lucky enough to see Prince perform on five different occasions. In 2011, Prince played almost a solid month at the Forum in Los Angeles for a mere $25 a show. Prince was making a stand at how much artists were charging for arena shows, and as a fan I took full advantage, going to see him three times that tour. The first night, he performed so many encores that the house lights were up and the janitorial staff was cleaning the stage as he wailed endlessly on his guitar. Prince was ever the consumate performer. He
Maybe the most telling thing about Prince is that he had no easy-to-pigeonhole demographic. At a Prince concert, you’d see young, old, gay, straight, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, you name it. Rock lovers, funk lovers, dance music lovers–I can think of very few artists who cross lines like that. In our world, this should be Prince’s lesson to us. Let all these things that divide us become irrelevant. Get a little funky and nasty while you can, because “life is just a party, and parties weren’t meant to last.”
RIP Prince Rogers Nelson. The world will be a less funky, less glamorous place without you.
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